i am pretty pissed at myself. i need to stop over thinking so many shit. i really can’t wait until school starts again. i really want to make new friends and i DESPERATELY want something new to happen. i hope i can get myself a boyfriend like my friend did. she’s s lucky bitch. i’m so jealous of her…so jealous of the fact that she has what i really want…like freedom and other shit. but it’s okay, i love her so i’m not gonna say anything.
you know what, i don’t want school to start. i am afraid that something bad is going to happen. i feel very invisible at school, but that’s just me. i shouldn’t complain so much because i’m lucky to actually have close friends… but you know how every girl is…she wants a little more attention. the only thing i’m looking forward to next year is art class! after sophomore year, imma be in ART HONORS in junior year! omg, i really can’t wait. uh…what else is there to say…hmm. oh yea, i made a resolution for myself for next year. i vow to be more social and well, i don’t know, just really be myself… if people don’t like who i really am, then they can just fuck off. i really don’t care what people think of me. at least i’m interesting. i rather be weird and myself than follow the fucking crowd. (haha, i have a lot of pride >.>”) other than that, i just really want to get my high school years over and well, improve on art. i can’t wait to leave this place. i hate it here.
i wonder if i can make new friends. really i do. i know i’m not really sociable and there are only a few people that i am myself with. i just really hope that i can meet people with the same interests and such. it’d be really nice to go to jrock concerts together…oh! it’d be even cooler if i could find a cute guy with the same interests -kyaa!- but i know i shouldn’t get too ahead of myself because i know that i’ll just be disappointed in the end…like always. but whatever. i just really hope next year will be a good year.
