man, fuck this.
i am so pissed. i don’t think anyone knows how pissed i am right now. partly because i’m having a bad time cause my fucked up little sister made me so…ANGRY! argh! i really, really, really can’t stand her. (i think i need anger control because sometimes when i’m really pissed, i get violent and i have violent images in my head) and secondly, i hate the fact that my mom doesn’t want me to go to art school. well, it’s not that she doesn’t want me to go, she believes that if i did go, i should do something like major in architecture, something that i don’t have a lot of interest in. i want to major in something like ILLUSTRATION, but if i said that, i don’t think my mom would approve. i still believe that she think art is just a HOBBY to me. well, i’m sorry, mom, art isn’t just a hobby, it’s more like a passion.
you know it’s funny why i even bother arguing with her about stuff like this. after all why should i think so much when she obviously doesn’t take me seriously. well, i don’t blame her if she she doesn’t take me seriously because i’m only fourteen (fifteen in a week, but, hey, it’s not like anything is going to change @ that age…) besides, a LOT of people don’t take me seriously. i know that they think i’m dumb. i told my dad that and he says that i’m not dumb; my focus is on something else. well, i HOPE that’s true because i have a really, LOW GPA. i’m not proud of that. i know i should take some AP classes, but i’m afraid if i do, i won’t be as focused on art. that’s bad considering i want to go to art school.
hmm…whatever. i don’t care. imma go to sleep…
眠いです。
